Writing the first post of the new year. After few months of not posting anything. I am excited to be back. It has been hard though. Getting back to posting. Specially posting from the archives. The self doubt and fear has been loud again. But I know that there is only one thing to do. Ignore it and do the work anyway. That is my practice. That is why I call it a practice.
Last year my plan was to show up everyday and publish something but I only managed to do 48 days. I am happy with that. Fuck perfection. Now I am going to do more. I am not judging the work, I am showing up and doing it. Not perfect but doing it. I am proud of what I have done so far and I am excited to show up everyday and publish a new piece. I appreciate the process and enjoy the practice.
This picture is representative of a very important time in my life. When a lot changed for me. When I grow up. I became independent. I left everything I knew behind and arrived at a whole new world.
I spend a lot of time sitting on that ledge, thinking about life. I sat by the window confused, writing, thinking or talking with a new friend, exploring myself and life. This photo reminds me of how now it all seems like a dream and how crazy and unexpected it was the way it all happened. I could never imagine it.
I learned and grow one day at a time. I figure it out and got better at it one day at a time. It was not perfect. It was not easy. I made a lot of mistakes. But I got better. I have learned a lot. I have come along way. And now it is no different. One day at a time we practice. Make, share and repeat. That is the practice. That is my practice.
Start today. As small as you can. As bad as you can. Doesn’t matter. Just start. You don’t need to know anything. You only need to start playing. It is crazy how simple the answer it always been. Just do. The rest all happens through action.